I just don't understand guys! They worship the ground you walk on if they can't have you then if they get your time and attention they take it for granted! I know they like a challenge but  how do you know if they really do care as deep for you as they say or is it all a game! I get bored with guys easy but the ones who fascinate me are wrong for me! I do know I am more willing to look and except that I would like a man in my life! That's a good sign right lol
I would like to find someone that loves life and God and has a real understanding and acceptance of being alive and can enjoy the quiet times in life as well as the adventurous times and really does know how to love one person forever! I settled before to not find happiness and I don't want to do that again It hurts to love someone to find it shattered It hurts bad and I think that's why I avoided guys for the past few years...Someone wrote please stop your killing me "love buzz" on a forum and boy it hit home because guys do make my emotions go from an extreme high when its good to and extreme low when its bad and then music that I love really has an effect on my emotions when I am sad or happy! I want to have more happy in my life but someone that is level on the emotions to not bring to to such lows .....I like to have peace and not drama in my life...not reason for it cept for people who need alot of attention...I want an even balance! Someone that can love but not smother! Its always one or the other where is my soul mate I dream to meet the perfect guy this year even if I have to feel the pain of the highs and lows again!