I have been single so long and it does scare me! I dated a lot the first 3 years then the past 3 I don't know I have sorta distanced myself from dating! I did lost my grandma ect (the most special person in my life besides my sons) And job changes and being a single mom doing it all on my own all these years has not always been easy I know that but being with the wrong guy is not easy either!
I know I am probably looking for someone I will never find, a total connection on all levels and maybe I do have to high of standards but darn it why does it seem you can find a guy that your attracted to psychically and mentally and someone that can relocate and deal with my shared boys as they are my life (7 and 13) It is a lot harder than u could imagine I get attention every where I go and people love me I am not afraid to be alone as I have this long hard as it is at times but I dont want to be too used to it lol It would be weird to even sleep with a guy all night been a couple years and only a handful times in past 6 so it is exciting and fun to have someone around but I want it to be someone that makes me want them around lol I am not one to just be with someone if it is not there ..my 3 live in relationships I did not marry but had kids and did think it would be forever but realized people change and I did not feel good about my choices I made in the men I chose but they changed and was jerks and the 3rd guy I just cared for as a friend level ..the first 2 ended up being jerks ect...How do you know someone for who they really are!
There is a lot of very weird guys out there as well as I am sure there is women!  I am not perfect and dont look for perfect but darn it I don't wanta wait forever but I dont even know how to find the right guy anymore I think!