Wow, I can't believe it has been almost 6 years now I have been single! I lost both my grandmas (my parents moms) I lost them with in a year of each other! Ive had family members come and go! My 13 year old son lived with his dad for4 years and now they are back living in town and I have had my 17 yr old go off to a school and back and to go back again 3 years on and off! Then my 20 year old son moved in and out and my last thing was my sisters moved away and I have not talked to them then my mother whom I was not talking to moved in with me a year ago! It has been a weird 6 years!

When I first was single I dated a lot and was like wow so many single men on the net! Then reality hit and I found out a lot of them live to far and the others just did not click or was full of it! People say why would someone as pretty and sweet as you stay single? Well it has its good and bad to it! These days I just keep so busy with kids work and my mom that I just don't think about it! But I also think in ways I long for someone that I never lived with and just dated a few times but I never got over them! I think I look for the same in a man and I will never find it! The moment our eyes met I felt something I have never felt since! I was not ready for it at the time as I think they also was not I kept a distance I wish to this day I would not have! He had shoulder length black hair and was mmmm dreamy and melted my heart! II feel as my exs do still to me I think and it sucks!

I put them out of my mind for so long but lately it seems to be hard to do as I so long for them again..and I don't know if you only have one real shot at love and I blew mine and choose single life as my fate instead with failed relationships and my kids all spit up due to it! I never want to settle again as I see so many do! But I would hate to give up on the dream of the perfect man!